Identity is a strange thing, and I've been struggling with it these past few years. But thankfully, I'm getting a grip on things, and it's time to put everything together in one place. It's time to define who I am so that I can move forward in a positive way.
I'm Jason. Some of you know me as Ace Kaller (My writing persona) and others know me as House Master Po Ding (My gaming persona). They're all one person. It's getting confusing to keep the two separate, and so the time has come to merge everything together.
Ace Kaller was supposed to be me, but instead, Ace turned out to be me trying to be what I thought people wanted me to be. I kept trying to be what people wanted, and in doing so, kept losing track of myself.
Po Ding was my gaming persona, and the one where I could freely be myself. I didn't have to lie about who or what I was, a non-binary masculine presenting member of the Battletech community. I could freely go out on voice chat and not worry about what people would think of me, I could talk about my life, my real life, and be accepted for it.
And so the time has come to phase out Ace. I don't need Ace anymore. I can be Jason, gaming as House Master Po Ding. Po Ding is about balance, and I've finally found that balance. I hope that people will accept me for who I am, for who I truly am, and that I can finally begin the long process of repairing my image in the Battletech Community and the many relationships that have been damaged over time as I've struggled with my identity.
