I Feel Lost

     I feel lost. That's all I can say at this point. I don't know my place in the community anymore, and I certainly don't understand my identity. I don't feel like I have any direction in which I'm going, or should go.I feel rudderless, totally lost on a sea of possibilities. I just don't know where to go.

    I want to create content that I can't. I don't feel like diving back into fanfiction is going to get me anywhere. If anything, I feel like it will take me back. I want to monetize my love of the game as well, but I don't feel like I have the content to warrant that. I don't know where to go.

    I love this game and this comunity, in spite of everything that has happened. I just want to find my place in it, and right now I feel lost. 

Blainesplaining

    I had a whole host of things written to respond to Blaine's latest foray into narcissism, but I decided against it. I have to move on. And that means moving past the tit-for-tat game that he would continue to play. Instead, I will wish him success in his endeavors going forward. I want no part of them, but that doesn't mean there isn't room for him to thrive amongst his flock of like minded folk. Their game, their country, their world, is not one I want to live in, but hey, you guys do you. 

    I am focused on a Battletech Universe and community that can thrive now that it has been freed of some of the toxic elements weighing it down. Battletech is in a great place right now. There are a whole host of incredible authors working on some amazing stuff, and I will do everything in my power to support them. The game itself is in the best place it has been in decades. The fiction that we are getting now is some of the most enriching and fulfilling material that has ever graced the Battletech canon. There is going to be an amazing Kickstarter coming up in March that is going to give us more minis and fiction and Battletech goodness.

    I'm excited for what is to come next in Battletech. I hope to be as much a part of it as I possibly can be. I hope that you all will join me along the way. It is a great time to be a Battletech fan, people! Enjoy it!